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about myself. I started really worrying about what I was. I thought I might be homosexual, and this troubled me very much. These thoughts were really a Godsend, however, because they made me think and start asking questions of myself. Answers to my questions could only come through research and so I started reading. A lot of the answers I got at first, were very disturbing. I was beginning to confirm my worry that I might be a homosexual. But I finally got myself straightened out on that point! I then thought that I might be transexual. This thought took longer for me to straighten out.

I started dreaming about really being a woman. I only wanted to rid myself of the male identities, and become female. I was very confused and lost during this time. I began to get some answers to this problem finally, and realized I was not of this particular group.

The real awakening came for me only after I was sent overseas and returned. My period of time overseas was a time of complete abstin- ance from dressing. I never lost the desire while I was overseas, I just never had the opportunity. But, after I came back from overseas, I had a real awakening. And that was when I came across TRANSVESTIA. I read the first volume and have been reading every one I could since the first one. TRANSVESTIA, I think, is one of the best things that can happen to a transvestite. It helped me understand myself and is still helping me. The discovery of TRANSVESTIA at the time, was again a Godsend. I no sooner had discovered it, than I found myself discover- ing a very wonderful girl.

Kathy came into my life just last year and I thank God that she did. We had met through mutual friends and hit it off right away.

It took us all of six months to make the big step and we were married. I made one bad mistake when we got married though, I was still too chicken to tell my new wife about Joanna. I just couldn't find the words.

Fate, as usual, forced my hand. I had been receiving TRANSVESTIA for about three months at a P.O. Box at the base. So the Air Force, being what it is, cancelled out the box and never told me about it. One day I came home and found TRANSVESTIA sitting in the plain brown envelope on the kitchen table. The only problem was it was opened. I told myself that Kathy hadn't opened it, but even hoping as much as I did, I couldn't change the facts.

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